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Tuesday, September 15, 2015

All These Questions

I have all these questions that keep popping up every time I hear some politician comment on the need for "get tough" policies that keep folks incarcerated for long stretches.

Here I go:
  1. What’s the real cost for locking someone up? Yeah, I know you claim it costs $27,000+ a year to keep someone behind bars; but that person also isn't working and paying taxes; and, if that person has kids, chances are that child is living under the poverty level and getting government aid; even worse, that child's likelihood of ending up in here dramatically increases. So, what is the real cost to society?

  2. You talk a lot about Virginia's low recidivism rate, yet every independent study conducted on state recidivism rates always notes that Virginia's approach to collection is different from the rest of the countries. And, as low as it is, it hasn't changed a bit since parole was abolished back in 1994. It's still a little below 30%. The difference is, back in '94 there were 9500 inmates; today there are about 40,000. And today, Virginia spends over $1.1 billion on corrections even though there isn't a whole lot of correcting going on. Programs for drug and alcohol treatment are a joke. Mental health treatment largely consists of high doses of antipsychotic meds. Safety? Go to a higher level and see the number of stabbings, rapes, assaults. Drugs are everywhere in the system; officers and staff are walked off every day for fraternizing with offenders. No one is held accountable--wardens and security chiefs keep their jobs; money gets flushed every day. There is no one who is held responsible. Rules--such as daily schedules and policies--are routinely ignored by the officers while offenders are nitpicked over silly housing policies which breeds further contempt and distrust. We always hear how low the recidivism rate is; yet most adult offenders started out in the Virginia juvenile system-- how effective is the Department of Corrections really?

  1. Why is it that DOC signed a consent order and settled a class action law suit brought by 5 women at Fluvanna over the poor medical care in the system, yet the same problems that existed there exist at every facility and still DOC fails to take control over the medical care? Hepatitis C positive inmates are daily denied access to treatment; injuries requiring surgery are put off; specialist’s orders are ignored by contract doctors who know that their private company's profit margin will only exist if treatment is denied. And still, DOC does not comply with the order of the Federal Court.

  2. How much does GTL, Keefe, and the other corrections- industrial corporations spend on lobbying Virginia politicians to keep their contracts in place and how much does Virginia receive as "commissions" under those contracts? How much does Virginia spend each year in legal fees and expenses when DOC loses cases for violations of inmate rights?

  3. Why do states--mostly under the control of Republicans--that have implemented prison reform with early release show better results in their DOC's than Virginia?
Yeah, I have a lot of questions I'd love to ask those in charge. Problem is, they don't want to discuss the issues, nor do they want to come out here and see what takes place behind bars. But hey, all I've got is time. So every fight, every OD, every wasted dollar, I write down. And one of these days, someone will listen. Prisons are needed; but the way things operate in Virginia does nothing to alleviate crime, nor prevent a person from coming back. And the sad fact is, most in here have neither the education, the job skills, or the hope to make it on the outside without changes. 

Good...Bye...


“In the clearing stands a boxer, 
And a fighter by his trade 
And he carries the reminders 
Of ev'rye glove that laid him down 

And cut him till he cried out
In his anger and his shame,
"I am leaving, I am leaving." 

But the fighter still remains”

Simon and Garfunkel's "The Boxer" reminds me of two dear friends who left this past week. Chuck and DC both have gone home to begin new lives, real lives, lives outside this cesspool with family and friends who love them and respect them and understand they are not the total of their "update sheets."

DC--like an older brother to me; 43 years--imagine that number, 43 years, locked up. He was ruthless and cruel and ignorant and now...now he is a man with dreams and ambitions and knowledge. He never shirked responsibility for his wrongs. That was one of things I loved about DC. He always told me he got what he deserved. I don't think so. I think he got more...so very much more than he deserved and he never complained. More importantly, he never gave up hope.

And Chuck? Chuck was just a decent guy; a military retiree who on one night made a terrible mistake. And it cost him. It cost him a marriage, and time with his three sons; and the birth of a grandchild; and his job; and his freedom; and his self-respect. And Chuck wore his guilt and his pain much like I do. But the beautiful thing about Chuck was, he never let it sour him. He cared about people; he helped people; and he found the inner strength through his faith to make a difference in a lot of younger men's lives in here.

Chuck and DC were my "go to" guys. On those days--more than I care to admit--that I felt the whole world crashing down around me, it was those two who would listen and then tell me to fight on, see the good, and never give up.

Prison is not a place for relationships and yet I love these two men like a brother loves his brothers. They were real in a place where almost everything else was phony. And I miss them both dearly, but know they are doing great.

Don't misunderstand me--I hate this place; I hate what it stands for; I hate the waste of money, and lives; and I hate the lack of accountability and the lack of honesty from those in charge. Prisons are failures--nothing, I repeat nothing, good comes from doing time. But these two men, good men, men who would stand with you no matter what, they survived and thrived and overcame this place in spite of the system's failures.

The boxer--my friend DC was a boxer and I know from his stories he was hit and knocked down and left on the mat more than a few times; but he always got up. "The fighter still remains."

If there is a silver lining to all this, it is in the fact that even in an environment like this you can find humanity. And, even when it looks like someone is beyond repair--even when we think there is no hope a person will ever be "right" we never can tell what is in that person's heart.

So Chuck is watching his beloved Red Sox in Tampa, and DC is going to see his Skins, and I'm still here a much better man for having friends like them.

“I'm on your side. When times get rough 
And friends just can't be found, 

Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.
Like a bridge over troubled water
I will lay me down.”


Old Paul and Art knew what they were singing about. Live wonderful lives my two dear friends.


Postscript: I've been thinking a great deal this summer about the meaning of incarceration, faith and the failure this system has to actually rehabilitate the vast majority. See it every day; you will see it on the pages here for the next few months. Governor McAuliffe is looking at parole--he needs to know the truth about this place. And if he reads the upcoming blogs, he will. 

Sunday, September 13, 2015

Super Bowl … And Winter Inside


THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN FEBRUARY, 2015.

 

            Past couple of weeks have been interesting in here. There’s been the security audit – a sham of a process where everything looks good for a few days; then the “system” goes back to normal and cluster rules the day again. There have been fights, dirty urines, new tattoos, more weed, more tobacco, no bagels on commissary, even after 22 day stretches. Days pass … but it’s like the movie “Groundhog Day;” you’ve seen it all before. The shifts change, the rules are rewritten, and then everything returns to how it was: poorly run.

            What breaks the monotony? Super Bowl for one thing. In my former life there was always a Super Bowl party. First, at our house with twenty or more friends and the table packed with food and drinks. Later years, there was Vegas – special invitation to high roller casino parties with more food and drink than is imaginable. Beautiful women everywhere. It was hedonism to the nth degree. Then came arrest, and lock up, and the Super Bowl didn’t matter until …

            I got here. Sports matter inside; and, the Super Bowl is celebrated in here just like on “the street.” It is an event that allows you to feel part of everybody else. You’re doing the same thing everyone else is.

            Food is everywhere: Pizzas, dips, nachos, wraps, cheesecakes, banana puddings, snack mix; it’s all here and it’s all made “fresh” (as fresh as prepackaged foods can be when mixed with Ramen and Rice and block cheese). Hours upon hours guys line up for access to the microwaves. Meatballs, pepperoni, bacon, ham, roast beef – the smells fill the air. Popcorn, cheese doodles, Fritos, Doritos – chips are unbagged and placed on newspaper. Kick off and tickets: bets for a dozen lines with quarter boards (1 soup equals 1 pick) flood the room. It’s loud and exciting and as close to “not here” as you can get. And as the game progresses into the 4th quarter every eye is on the field. Nothing can break the feeling except “Count Time. TVs off.” It’s 9:30 count and for five minutes the building is silent and we remember, we are still inside … Football and the Super Bowl, they remind you of what is beyond here.

            Then, winter hits. First the arctic blast – it’s 0° and no rec is called. The snow starts and by Tuesday we have over six inches. No school. Stuck in the building, you read, watch TV; some play cards or bones (dominoes). You watch the news and again you’re reminded the world outside, real life, is so much like yours in here. They can’t keep the weather out. They try and take away your dignity, truth, self-respect, freedom. But those things, like the weather, find their way in here.

            The playwright Eugene O’Neil, remarked that “Man is born broken. He lives by mending. The grace of God is glue.”

            As I walk out the door and head down the boulevard to chow I think instead that the grace of God is snow. It is cold - 5° with the wind chill – and it is pristine and it is quiet; and it pierces the despair that is life behind bars. Winter, contrary to so many poets’ words, really is a fresh season, a new beginning. Keep your spring; I’ll take Super Bowl and snow and running shirtless with my breath hanging in the air. Prison has no answer for winter.

 

Dust in the Ray



THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN FEBRUARY, 2015.

            I read an interesting short story the other day. It centered around a guy thinking his life was being led the “right way.” He was honorable, he was a good citizen, he was lawful. And, as such he could pass judgement on all the wrong he saw. There he was one morning, ready to take on the world when he saw it. There in the kitchen a ray of morning sunlight shone through the window. In the ray he saw thousands of particles of dust, usually invisible to his eye – in a room he knew was spotless, just like his life – and yet there it was in that ray clear for all to see. He realized in that ray his life was exposed. The ray was pure; it was God’s light. And the dust was all his arrogance and pride and judgment – he really was no better than those he’d held in judgment.

            I read that story and smiled. I got the metaphor of the ray. How odd I would “get it” in here during a week when my mind was bombarded by commentary and talking heads telling me who “loved” this country; who was law-abiding, who spoke for God. I thought all about it as I did another week inside, paying “my debt” to society for breaking the law.

            So the former mayor of New York says the President isn’t “like us.” He doesn’t love “America the way we do.” What spurred those comments? The President stated that what is happening in the Middle East is no more representative of Islam that the Klan is of Christianity. And you know, he’s right. No “religion” has morality cornered. History is replete with people doing horrible, awful things in the name of God. How often, in our visceral reaction to the beheading of a journalist or the burning alive of a Jordanian pilot, that we immediately utter how barbaric “those people” are. Yet, we forget that it wasn’t that many years ago when an angry white crowd in St. Louis threw a small black baby into a burning home; it wasn’t that many years ago when the churches in Alabama and Mississippi shielded killers – Klansmen who lynched and tortured simply because of one’s color. Do we remember how the churches in Germany were co-opted by a murderous tyrant? The ray of sunlight exposes the dirt.

            There is a tension at work between faith and devout citizenship. Too often, we think being faithful means supporting. The status quo. Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr. wrote:

            “The church is not the master or servant of the state, but rather the conscience of the state. It must be the guide and critic of the state, and never its tool.”

            Put another way, civil life doesn’t necessarily equate with spiritual wellbeing. Or, as C.S. Lewis remarked, “Almost all crimes of Christian History have come about when religion is confused with politics.”

            You cannot read the New Testament, those magnificent parables in the four Gospels, and come away with a self-righteous attitude that we are good and they are bad. We care called to live in tension with society. Coziness with the state – any state – and the church may be good for the state but it is bad for the church.

            Throughout his entire adult life Jesus’ ministry was to the outcast, the downtrodden, the sick scum on the fringe. His anger, so seldom vented, was directed to who? The Pharisees – those who lived by legalistic interpretation. Jesus understood that proof of spiritual maturity is not how “pure” you live, but how aware you are of the impurity in your own life. We aren’t “pure;” we are covered in the dust. As Phillip Yancey says, “what trivial matters we obsess over, and what weighty matters of the law – justice, mercy, faithfulness – might we be missing?”

            This isn’t about Rudy Giuliani – though I wonder why when he talks about his “love” for the country he neglects to point out how over and over he sought and received military deferments to avoid service during Vietnam, how his “moral compass” didn’t preclude adultery. “You can know the law by heart without knowing the heart of it.”

            I lived a life of a legalist. I saw the world in black and white, right and wrong. Trouble is, without being right with God – and by right I mean understanding what He really is about – you can’t begin to see the wrong in yourself. “Father forgive them. They knew not what they do.” Here He is, wrongly accused, convicted, tortured, and now death’s throws and He is not calling for retribution; He isn’t even calling for justice. He is calling for mercy.

            I think a good deal about mercy – for those who wrong us; for terrorists and for those of us doing time; mercy; because we realize while we may not be “them,” we aren’t that far removed from them. That was the point being made with the adulterous woman’s accusers: “If you are free of sin, then carry out the sentence.” And the crowd, they saw the dust and dirt and grime of their own lives in the light; and they were humbled and they left.

            “Don’t the Bible say we must love everybody?”

            “O the Bible! To be sure it says a great many things;

            But, then, nobody ever thinks of doing them.”

            That dialog came from Harriet Beecher Stowe’s pre-Civil War master piece; Uncle Tom’s Cabin. One hundred and fifty years later has anything changed?

            Every day in here I deal with broken, lost, sometimes violent men. And I ask myself in moments of silent meditation, “why” – why this? Nothing the state does or can do can clean the hearts of those of us in here. Our nation can drop tons of bombs but hearts will not change. The conclusion of the adulterous woman story is revealing. After the crowd leaves only she remains with Jesus. “Woman, where are all your accusers?” “They have left.” He looks in the face of an obviously remorseful woman, a woman who has seen “the dust” of her life in the ray. “Then neither will I condemn you.”

            Why am I writing about dust? I guess because my faith journey has led me to realize Atticus Finch was right. We have to try and walk around in the other guy’s skin; we have to show empathy, mercy, kindness especially so to those who wouldn’t show it to us. For far too long I lived in the shadows of cleanliness. The light exposed the dust. Those of us who profess faith would do well to remember that when any representative of the state tries to tell us what is right.

 

Education, Not Incarceration



THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN FEBRUARY, 2015.

 

            “Every dollar spent on prison education saves five dollars in corrections expenditures.” That was the conclusion drawn in a 2014 released meta-analysis study conducted by the Rand Corporation. Sentencing a person to prison does more to undermine one’s employability than any other factor. Is it any wonder 65% of released offenders re-offend within 3 years. Inmates are twice as likely to lack a high school education as the general population.

            In the words of Vivian D. Nixon, Executive director of College and Community fellowship in New York,

            “Every felony conviction … quite literally results in a life sentence.”

            Education – and only education breaks the cycle of repeat offenses. Earn a bachelor’s degree in prison and the recidivism rate drops to 5.6%. Earn a master’s and the rate is less than 1%. No less a conservative spokesman than former U.S. House Speaker Newt Gingrich said the following:

            “Prisoners should be provided free education in order to reduce crime and recidivism.”

            And yet education – particularly higher-educated – is the red-headed stepchild of the prison system. At this facility every man in our college program pays his own way – tuition – the same rate charged to students on the street. No other inmates in Virginia pay for the “privilege” of improving their chances for success on the street. Not even one state dollar is invested in the college program here, yet millions annually go into “re-entry” programs with no provable record of success. The commonwealth spent millions on a “software” package – “Compass,” a 120 plus question/survey to determine an offenders risk of re-offending. Meanwhile a nationally recognized program for offenders our “Campus within Walls” program is treated with both benign neglect and outright contempt by those in charge here.

            The “dedicated housing unit,” a dorm specifically mandated for use by college participants, is the fullest building on the compound. While bed space sits empty in every other building here, those in charge continue to use beds in this building as a dumping zone. Recent surveys of our students indicated the noise and distractions from the non-college residents are the single greatest impediment to success in class.

            Makes you wonder, or maybe it doesn’t. Education, a college education, is the ticket out. What does that tell you about the goals of those in charge?

            It is time for the Department of Corrections to get behind the one program that will reduce recidivism and that will give these men a fighting chance of success after release.

 

DOC Loses, Again and Again


THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN FEBRUARY, 2015.

 

            Betting against DOC in court is becoming a no-brainer. The folks in Richmond keep defending – and losing inmate suits. The cost is borne by the taxpayers.

            So, an inmate in Virginia’s maximum security facility, Red Onion, asks to participate in the Muslim fasting period of Ramadan. Officers go into his cell and search, looking for “physical items in his possession to prove his faith.” The inmate has a Koran and a prayer rug, but nothing else. DOC denies the inmate's participation in the fasting period. He filed suit.

            Ruling against the prison, the U.S. Fourth Circuit Court of Appeals found that DOC policy was unconstitutional.

            “The First Amendment demands a more reasoned approach, even within the difficult confines of a prison environment.” The court found that indicators of an inmate’s sincere religious beliefs go beyond physical possession of religious items. The court then awarded the inmate $3.795 (his filing and copying costs to bring this prose suit).

            Like the inmate medical care suit (inmates at the Fluvanna Women’s prison), this suit should cause DOC to change policy at every institution. But it doesn’t. Inmates continue to file grievances over bad medical care and denial of their rights to practice their religion. The grievances are filed, suits go forward, and taxpayers pay. No one in the administration is called to answer for it. Sounds crazy doesn’t it?

            Here’s a word you don’t hear too often involving Virginia’s Department of Corrections: Accountability. It’s time DOC is held to the same standard those of us doing time are held to. DOC needs to be accountable.

 

Corrections Incompetence



THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN FEBRUARY, 2015.

 

            It’s hard to believe how poorly things run inside a prison. Perhaps no state agency is more mismanaged, more inept, more incompetent than the DOC. Every day brings more fuel for the fire showing the colossal failure that is this place. Maybe that’s a good thing. If they really knew what they were doing, our lives in here would be worse.

            Take last week for example. The compound was on edge awaiting the arrival of the “security audit” team. What, you may ask, is a “security audit team”? It’s a group of 5 or 6 wardens, associate wardens, and security chiefs from other facilities in the DOC system, hardly an independent eye. Worse, the facility knows they are coming so people begin running around like crazy trying to run things the way they think the audit team wants them. The rub is, things aren’t done that way in here. Tension gets higher. Try going to work or medical: “Can’t let you out. You aren’t on the pass list.” Who puts the pass list together? You guessed it: security. And the pass list is a twenty plus page print-out with no rhyme or reason to it. It isn’t sorted by alphabet, state number, or building. Crazy right? Well, that’s DOC.

            The audit team arrives and suddenly there are officers everywhere. What the audit team doesn’t know is they called in COs from the other day shift to show a full complement of staff. Watching from the Program Building (i.e. the school) I see 5 auditors being escorted by 26 COs and “big hats” (rank’d officers – lieutenants, captains, and – of course – the major!). As one disgusted CO told me, “That’s more officers than we have in the buildings on night shift.” Make it look like they have sufficient staff at work – make it look good – forget reality.

            How about access to the facility? Here’s a story. A college professor who has been teaching here for 5 years tries to come in to teach. The metal detector is cranked up. It goes off when it hits her brass buttons. “We will have to strip search you,” the officer tells her – say what? Cooler heads prevail until …

            Weekend visitation: My 80 year old mother has had knee replacement surgery – she’s bionic (has a titanium knee). For almost 6 years she has visited me every month and never had a problem. She and my father travel extensively, in and out of airports all over the world. The TSA lets her pass right on through but here, at a level 2 re-entry facility…

            “Maam, if you don’t send the warden your medical records you won’t be allowed back in.” She was lucky. They still let her in. For many after her on Saturday, they were denied access.

            Who is responsible for this fiasco? The major – he’s (allegedly) in charge of security. But, what passes for security in here does absolutely nothing to make this place more secure, more safe, better run. It is all “sizzle” with no meat. Being a “hard ass,” saying you’re going to run a facility “tight” doesn’t make the facility run well. There are poor management skills and practices in place here. Money and manpower is wasted. Rules have no penological basis nor do they (1) make the place safer or (2) support the alleged mission of DOC (a large part of which is to prepare offenders for successful return to society).

            The process is heavy on paper, with staff who lack basic education skills (try reading most of the memos put out) trying to keep the system chugging along. Rules have nothing to do with safety and security (think “2 books only” on your locker). There are multiple layers of supervision and control yet no one will make a decision without the warden or major approving it first. In other words, nothing gets done because no one has the power.

            The security audit concluded, visitation screwed up, things go back to how they were. That’s life in here, about $25 million spent each year to keep this facility wheezing along. Safety? Security? That has nothing to do with how this place is run. Neither does efficiency. Maybe, just maybe, it’s time for a real audit of Virginia’s prison system to be conducted. Maybe, just maybe, it’s time to hold majors, wardens, and directors responsible for what really goes on in here. Maybe, just maybe it’s time to stop corrections incompetence.

 

 

Grievance Process – or lack thereof

THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN FEBRUARY, 2015.




            During the mid 1990’s President Bill Clinton, embroiled in his own sordid sexcapades that become known as the “Lewinsky scandal” signed into law the Prison Litigation Reform Act. The PLRA was an attempt by the majority House Republicans to reign in what they perceived as activist judges from coddling inmates and their complaints. Before enactment of the PLRA an aggrieved inmate could file for habeas relief (habeas corpus protection goes all the way back to the English common law and ensures that “the state” cannot arbitrarily hold a person in confinement without “due process of law” which in effect means an accused is entitled to be treated “fairly”).


            If an inmate’s rights were being violated, the inmate could hand write a petition to the Federal court and spell out the constitutional abridgement. Cases involving beatings by officers, torture, lengthy terms “in the hole” all routinely found their way to Federal Court. Each year tens of thousands of these petitions were filed in U.S. District Courts. And, there were frivolous cases filed. Inmates, with nothing but time on their hands, would file suit because bread wasn’t soft enough, or conjugal visits were not permitted.


            The PLRA was enacted to curb those alleged excesses (more significantly, the act also attempted to deprive death row inmates of appellate rights to review their capitol convictions). Under the PLRA, state were permitted to set up “administrative processes.” Inmates were required to comply with those processes before being able to file suit. Every state and the Federal Bureau of Prisons did such. And, an inmate’s ability to challenge unfair prison treatment immediately began to wither.


            Due process in prison is just a couple of words. The grievance process in effect at this facility is neither fair, nor objective. It fails the “smell” test.


            The facility has a grievance “ombudsman,” a person responsible for handling and investigating inmate complaints. The term “ombudsman” has a specific meaning. It means “a public official appointed to investigate citizen complaints.” By its very definition it implies objectivity and fairness. Nothing can be further from the truth with this facility’s grievance ombudsman.


            Most egregious of the defects is the fact that the staff person in charge of grievances isn’t objective. Her comments about grievances filed by inmates reflects her belief that inmates “don’t know as much” as she does. Case in point – I recently filed a grievance detailing an improper withholding of pay. I specifically “grieved” the housing/program director who attempted to (1) issue a backdated memo about “pay during lockdowns and holidays” and (2) prohibited the education unit from paying for tutoring work in the buildings during those periods while he continued to give full pay to his own workers.


            The grievance ombudsman sent my grievances go to my work supervisor (who wanted to pay me) because “inmates don’t dictate where grievances go, I do.” Here’s the funny thing. Without sounding too arrogant, I have more education, more legal knowledge, and more administrative experience than the facility Ombudsman. Contrary to her view, I know exactly who is responsible for my pay shortage and who created the policy. If the ombudsman was interested in the merits of the complaint, she would have read it and forwarded it to the housing/programs manager and asked (1) why did you “backdate” your policy and (2) why are education workers arbitrarily being denied pay when your workers aren’t? But she didn’t do that because what matters is that the facility wins.


            Daily I am confronted by fellow inmates who just don’t give a damn. The system is rigged, they will tell you. There is no such thing as justice in here. Officers write petty, bullshit charges, rules are arbitrarily enforced, legitimate grievances ignored. “You can’t fight them Larry; you can’t win. They’re in charge.” And I shake my head and try not to agree even though all I see every day is the sham process of discipline and grievances.


            I think of Atticus Finch and his impassioned defense of black share cropper Tom Robinson before an all-white Alabama jury in “To Kill A Mockingbird,”


            “We know all men are not created equal in the sense some people would have us believe. Some people are smarter than others, some people have more opportunity because they’re born with it … But there is one way in this country in which all men are created equal – there is one human institution that makes a pauper equal to a Rockefeller, the stupid man equal to an Einstein … that institution, gentlemen, is the law…”


            Perhaps it’s time for those in charge to remember those profound words. Even the incarcerated deserve fairness.


 

Lyin Brian: Life Imitates Prison


THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN FEBRUARY, 2015.

 

            A story about my first year here. I thought if I put my legal education and experience to good use I could somehow improve life for most inmates. For months I wrestled with the schizophrenia that is life behind bars: Don’t judge the person – no matter what they did, don’t trust the person, don’t question anyone’s truthfulness. I had a few simple rules for helping guys. First, don’t lie to me. I needed to know, no matter what, exactly what transpired. Second, don’t offer to pay me. There was no quid pro quo. I wasn’t going to be some stereotypical “jailhouse” lawyer who promised guys he’d get them out for a small fee. Like the Eagles “Hotel California,” you can check into prison “anytime you like, but you can never leave.”

            I wanted to believe the system was corrupt (which it is) and that corruption was keeping behind bars thousands of innocent men (which it wasn’t). It took a long time for me to figure out there is a difference between “innocent” and “decent.” Prison takes apart the lives of thousands of decent men (and women) who did illegal – and in some cases horrific – things.

            So, I would read dozens of trial transcripts each week. More often than not, I would find that the inmate (1) was as guilty as guilty could be; and (2) had lied to me about the facts. I also learned that there was no rhyme or reason to sentences. Repeat offenders – those coming back to the system – were typically given a few years (I often heard those men were doing life in 3 year installments), while – depending on the jurisdiction you were in – the years for nonviolent offenses exceeded those handed out for child porn, child sex abuse, even second degree murder; and (3) worst of all, most of my “clients” weren’t remorseful. They were bitter, scheming, “career” lawbreakers who were looking for “an edge,” a way to go toe to toe with a rigged justice system.

            I would tell guys “no” all the time: no, you have no “loophole” to your conviction; no, you aren’t innocent and you weren’t railroaded. As you can imagine, that pissed people off. I didn’t care. The truth, I decided, mattered. I kept coming back to a letter exchange my then wife and I had while I was at the jail in ’08. She wrote and told me she hated me; “there is no more ‘us’,” she said. “You are a liar and a thief.” I wrote her back, told her I loved her and used the line George Clooney spoke to Julia Roberts in “Ocean’s Eleven” (a movie I watch every time it comes on because of their interaction), “I only lied about stealing.” Trouble is, you can’t compartmentalize lying. Honesty, truth matters, not just in marriage but in life.

            This week NBC News anchor Brian Williams had “some esplainin’” to do. He “exaggerated” – i.e. falsified – his narrative of a trip in 2003 to see soldiers in Iraq. He went from journalist dining with soldiers to an active participant in a mid-air RPG hit on the chinook helicopter he was riding in. This wasn’t the first time Williams told the story. For the last few years he has told it, each time embellishing just a wee bit more until the narrative no longer resembled the truth. It reminded me of the toothless crackhead who stopped my run one day in 2010 to tell me “I had a Bentley and a Ferrari, counselor.” “Of course you did,” I replied looking at a man without an education from the worst housing project in Norfolk, a man who was on his fourth trip to DOC for drug use. My buddy DC told me that day, “Guys become whatever they want to be in here and they think no one knows the difference.”

            The truth matters in here … and outside. I find myself thinking a lot about that fundamental premise right now. There are those in DOC (incarcerated and those who work here) that have made it clear to me that they don’t like my writing about prison life. I recently saw a quote from Stephane Charbonnier, director of the French satirical magazine “Charlie Hebdo.” In 2012 he was interviewed and asked if he worried his publication’s attacks on “sacred” subjects could endanger him.

            “It may sound pompous but I’d rather die standing than live on my knees.”

            Charbonnier was one of those killed in the Paris Massacre at the “Charlie Hebdo” offices on January 7th. The truth – honesty – matters.

            Truth: there is a need for prisons. There are some who are so anti-social that they need to be kept from society. However, for the vast majority of those behind bars, prison serves no rehabilitative purpose. You won’t leave prison a better man or woman because of your time behind bars but in spite of your time. Prison is dehumanizing. Prison does nothing to address the root causes of so much of the crime we see: poverty, lack of adequate educational opportunities, fractured families, recurrent cycles of violence. Worse, a significant number of those “on the front line” of corrections want offenders to fail for job security. Some are even hostile and contemptuous of those they oversee.

            Prisons “corrections” – need to be exposed to the truth. People need to see what really goes on in here and what incompetence and neglect their tax dollars are being frittered away on. This lack of honesty, of truthfulness isn’t just the Brian Williams story, or the story of a crackhead and his pretend Bentley, it’s the sum total of Virginia’s prison apparatus.

Walking Out the Front


THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN FEBRUARY, 2015.

 

            I received an email (by printed copy of course!) asking about newly released prisoners. What happens when you leave? First, DOC has what they call “adjustment days,” 30 of them. Your “release date” is 30 days (or 28 – 29 days if on a weekend) earlier than calculated provided you have a verifiable home plan. What’s a verifiable home plan? A place to live that isn’t in a high-crime area with other felons – or guns – around. Yeah, that’s realistic for most guys in the system! So, they take some of those 30 days back while a home plan gets perfected (half-way house included). At the end of 30 days, plan or no plan, you leave – they can’t keep you beyond your release date (unless, of course, you are civilly committed as a predatory sex-offender).

            Guys learn early: Get a home plan or entered in a half-way house and don’t rely on these people. Counselors are notorious for dropping the ball – you learn 2 days before your release date your home plan fell through. Worse, if you are heading out of state you must be pre-approved with the receiving state (called “inter-state” compact). That process can take up to six months.

            You get everything lined up and you are ready to leave – what happens? DMV comes and prepares you a photo ID (looks like a driver’s license). You meet with the release officer who goes over your money (you get $25 in cash plus your savings on a debit card which, as an aside, is costly to use – it’s part of the JPay system notorious in prison. All that money comes from you – the state gives you nothing).

            Clothing: Families can send in “home clothes” 30 days before you leave. You put those on the morning you walk out. No one sends you anything? You are measured and given a khaki work pant and windbreaker set.

            You box up and send out all your personal stuff. Guys in the building hover around hoping to get a spare bowl, or book, or tee shirt.

            Release day. If no one is coming, you’re called out of the building at 4:00 am handcuffed, shackled, and driven to the bullpen at Powhatan where you are placed in a van and driven to the bus station. But, if family or friends are coming to pick you up, around 8:00 you leave the building. You walk down to property, dress, and then around 8:30 you walk up the boulevard and through the gates to the administration office, the front door, and freedom.

            You greet your family, you don’t look back, and you hope to God you aren’t one of three coming back. There’s a meeting with your probation officer within the first 48 hours and a drug screen. You have to find work and make plans to pay court costs, restitution, and fines. And it’s scary – you see it on the guy’s faces as they head up the boulevard – but there aren’t standing counts or chow lines or lock downs. You wear the scarlet “F” – “felon,” but you are out.

            Each year, upwards of 17,000 men and women walk out. Each year 5,000 to 6,000 walk right back in. The odds aren’t great but ultimately it’s on you … and that’s a good thing. Your record is public information. Your release documents are yours alone; but, DOC always has your number. You are always in their system.

It’s Hamlet for God’s Sake!


THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN FEBRUARY, 2015.

 

            Hamlet, one of William Shakespeare’s great tragedies, is being taught in the college British Literature class this semester. Hamlet, for those who don’t know, is the story of a young prince. He’s away at college living it up when he’s visited by a ghost. The ghost tells him, “Your Uncle has murdered your father – the King – and has taken his crown. And, he’s doing your mom. You hear me Hamlet, this guy’s taken your legacy and is screwing your mom. Go home and settle the score.” So Hamlet goes home, only he doesn’t “take care of business.” He dithers and dawdles and people die. At the end, everyone is dead, the crown is empty and a Danish king strolls in and takes the kingdom. The themes, the tragedy that is Hamlet, are as old as man. Perhaps that’s why this – and so many other Shakespearian dramas – still flourish. They speak to the failing that is the human experience.

            The instructor is a wonderful woman who speaks with a Southside Virginia twang. Her knowledge of British literature is astounding! She’s forgotten more than I could possibly learn. Add to that, she’s a Dickens’ groupie. I love Dickens’ novel Bleak House. It is an indictment of the British legal system. I first read it in law school and have reread it another three or four times. The students – all whom have experienced the real workings of our justice system – rip and tear through Dickens’ fictitious Jarndice v. Jarndice Chancery case. Literature - themes about the human condition and life – real life – is presented and discussed and learning takes place.

            But this isn’t about British authors. No, this is about the policies present at facilities like this to stunt – or even stop – learning. I once thought it was out of ignorance that policies were mistakenly in place which effectively interfere with education. As I watch – and daily live in here – taking in the sheer stupidity of procedures that harm the education of inmates, I have concluded it’s deliberate. Ignorant, uneducated released felons come back. That keeps places like this is business.

            Hamlet. To get books, movies, or school supplies in here almost takes an act of Congress. Weeks before classes begin instructors have to send lists of “materials” they wish to bring in. The British Lit books – five separate texts plus six videos/DVDs were dropped off “up front” to be “examined.” Who does the examining? An “operations” director who has never read Shakespeare, or Dickens, or Hardy. Three or four days later the materials make their way to the school with a cursory email sent from the security chief (another “senior” staff member who lacks a college education). “All materials are permitted,” he writes.

            Hamlet is approved, only the books are on order. So the British lit instructor brings them with her (and a copy of the email from security) when she shows up to teach. “Can’t bring them back without operations OK.” Three more days and Hamlet sits up front, Hamlet for God’s sake, one of the great works of literature, while everyone waits on the operations manager to “complete her review.”

            And it isn’t just Hamlet. The biology instructor can’t get non-alcohol based lens wipes in to clean microscope lenses and slides. She wasn’t allowed to bring Gatorade in for use with a DNA experiment even though officers buy Gatorade in the visitation room.

            Worse, try coming in here to teach. Try being a minister or lawyer arranging a “special” visit. Citizens – taxpayers – are subjected to demeaning treatment and disrespect. A college professor regularly has to wait to gain access to the facility – even though they know she’s coming out here at that time – because the “check in” CO is on lunch break.

            “Why does the college need its own building?” That was the “housing manager” overheard recently. This guy takes pay from education aides who are tutoring in the buildings while making sure his re-entry elders get full pay. Chief of Security? He regularly tells staff how much he can’t stand the college program – forget how all the men in college pay their own way (name any other DOC program where men pay “street prices” for a program? There isn’t any.)

            How can this happen? How can the people paid by the taxpayers to rehabilitate and release offenders back to society to live as law-abiding citizens be so openly hostile to the single best deterrent to recidivism – higher education? Perhaps someone should ask DOC Director Harold Clarke.

            Harold Clarke’s hiring to run Virginia DOC came with great public fanfare back in 2010. Mr. Clarke spoke candidly about his Christian faith. Back then, I took Mr. Clarke at his word. I wrote and asked him – as a Christian, what kind of DOC Director would Jesus be? Five years later, I can tell you my understanding of the Savior is He wouldn’t run this place like Mr. Clarke does.

            And the politicians who continue to rubber stamp DOC budget requests – how do they continue to do the same thing over and over without even leaving Richmond for a day and seeing what they are paying for?

            “The Buck Stops Here.” Virginia needs you, Harry Truman. It’s time to hold those in charge of this broken, incompetent, bias system accountable.

            One last thing: it’s Hamlet, for God’s sake. I have been told – off the record – on more than one occasion to “be careful. They read what you write.” And, I think back to a day in August 2009 in a sweltering, roach infested receiving cell. My cellie – 24 years old and with a 70 IQ, doing 76 years for murder. He had threatened to kill me that day because in his eyes, I’d done the unthinkable: I stood for count.

            He said to me that day, “You think you is better than me.” I said no, “I think, no I know, I’m better than this place.” And I stood there and thought if I’m going to die, it’s better to go out as a decent man. I remember Atticus Finch’s words in “To Kill a Mockingbird.”

            “Before I can live with other folks, I’ve got to live with myself. The one thing that doesn’t abide by majority rules is a person’s conscience.”

            It’s Hamlet, for God’s sake! And, it’s time for DOC to give a damn about education and truth.

The Law and Justice


THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN JANUARY, 2015.

 

            I was reading John Grisham’s latest legal thriller and it got me thinking about my own law career. Back in the ‘80s – was it really that long ago? – I tried cases; big cases, small cases it didn’t matter. I loved court. I loved the energy and the jousting, the intellectual combat. I loved having jurors smile and nod in agreement; I loved winning and often, too often really, winning came easily and mattered more than justice.

            Grisham’s novel, Gray Mountain, is set in the far southwestern corner of Virginia. It involves coal companies and poor Appalachian mountain folk, and little hamlets nestled in hollers. It portrays the enigma that is the law. It is more than good versus evil. And, it reminded me of the days so long ago when I thought winning mattered above all else.

            I was bright, outgoing and idealistic. I wanted to argue and write about cases that would change the world. But marriage and a house payment and dozens of other compromises led me to a mid-size firm. I cut my teeth, so to speak, driving from Knoxville to Harlon, Kentucky. Our firm represented a number of coal companies. I’d drive into the coal fields and see men, working men with nails black from the mines and arms and hands scarred and gnarled from real labor, and I’d “discuss” their black lung claims – me in my pressed white Oxford shirt and three piece wool blend, gray pin-striped suit. I’d fight them over a few thousand dollars in benefits before returning to my office and my cute, perky secretary. Then, I’d drive to Chattanooga and help a developer who’d figured out how to manipulate Federal urban development block grants into hotels with attached city-rented parking garages. It was all legal and it was so far from where I dreamt I’d be.

            My first jury trial: Two weeks after admittance to the bar I’m in the Knox County Circuit Court. My client, an obnoxious, arrogant VT grad student. One Friday night after returning home from a date with the daughter of one of our firm’s biggest estate clients, ol’ James decides to drink a couple of tall boys with a joint or two. Later, he climbs in bed not realizing he’d left a smoldering butt between couch cushions. A neighbor saw the smoke and crawled across the fire escape to beat on the bedroom window. James made it out. The apartment was a mess.

            So, the estate client calls the senior partner who calls me at home with a new assignment. “It’s an insurance claim,” he tells me. “They’ll negotiate. Help the kid out for Mr. F.” As I said, my client was a real piece of work. “I’m not paying for the damage,” he tells me. “I don’t have any money.” The insurance company hires a lawyer, a lovely, proper woman who was a year ahead of me in law school. Her father, coincidentally, was a Federal Judge.

            “Larry, we are willing to reduce the demand from $21,000 to 12,000, all payable in monthly installments over five years.” The apartment building owner didn’t want problems with VT renters. But my client turned the offer down. “Fuck em,” he told me. “What do I care if they go to court?” Like I said, a real charmer.

            I started preparing for trial. I had no business even putting on a defense, but I did … I discovered something in the scene photos – no smoke detectors. I learned from the fire marshal they’d been taken down a week before the fire so the unit could be painted.

            Trial comes and I get to pick a jury: mostly older women like my grandmother. And I’m polite and ask nothing as all the evidence comes in about the fire damage. The owner testifies about the building repairs. My turn.

            I show him the scene photos of the wall without the smoke detector and he admits they were taken down. I move in for the kill. I read into the record the code sections requiring smoke detectors.

            “This young man could have died because you didn’t think the detector needed to be rehung … You violated the law and this young student has lost everything!”

            I sound like a Baptist preacher. My questions are rhythmic, my voice raising and lowering in a cadence. The owner is stammering and red faced.

            Then, my client takes the stand and he becomes “Eddie Haskell” –

            “Yes sir. I coughed and wheezed and thought I was going to die.”

            The women in the jury box looked on with eyes of sympathy and concern. “I lost everything.” The jury took less than an hour to reach a verdict: nothing for the apartment owner. My client, James, was awarded $3500 (his lost property) and another $3000 in punitive damages. And me? “The law provides legal fees for housing law violations.” $10,000 in fees came my way.

            Law. Justice. It was right in the law, but it wasn’t justice. The apartment owner was a decent man and I made him look like a money-grubbing, heartless bastard. And my client? He was so busy getting high and drunk that he almost burned an entire building down.

            “Great result Larry. Mr. F is pleased.” Me? I wondered if that’s why I went to law school. I handled dozens of cases like that. I watched families disintegrate as I argued about assets in divorce cases. I defended bank directors who ignored the recklessness of management and destroyed investor value. I could argue either side of a case … and I could win. The law was just that: an arena where winners and losers were determined.

            “A man’s respect for law and order exists in precise relationship to the size of his paycheck.” The Reverend Adam Clayton Powell, Jr., of Harlem’s Abyssinian Baptist Church said that. I think of those words often in here. Reverend Powell was on to something. We tend to espouse a lot of flowery words about the law when we’re on top. Get caught up in its gristmill, however, and our respect for, our love for, the law decreases.

            I wasn’t yet in high school the first time I saw “To Kill a Mockingbird.” Harper Lee’s novel, perhaps the best American novel ever written, was required reading in my upper income, all white middle school. We read about Scout, Jem, and Dill and Boo Radley. We read about Atticus Finch, southern lawyer, father, decent human being. And then the movie. I sat spell-bound as Gregory Peck portrayed Atticus. “You never really understand a person until you consider things from his point of view – until you climb into his skin and walk around in it.”

            I watched Atticus’s impassioned defense of Tom Robinson, a defense which exposed the shame of the Jim Crow South. Atticus believed in justice and the power of the law. No scene stayed with me as much as at the conclusion of the trial a weary Atticus Finch turned to leave the courtroom. In the balcony, in the “colored” seating area everyone rose. “Stand up Scout, your father is passing by,” the black reverend told Atticus’s daughter. It was a scene of respect that my generation of law students etched in our minds. The law mattered; being a lawyer was noble.

            Atticus was the last true lawyer hero. Today, it isn’t justice we see, its law. Too often the law becomes a tool to incarcerate, to violate, to humiliate. Justice is like a waterfall spraying; law has become like a stagnant pool. I see the bad side of the law every day in here. And, I wonder how often those in power – prosecutors, judges, corrections employees – think about Atticus Finch’s admonition, “until you climb into his skin and walk around it in.”

            The smartest lawyer I ever met was a young woman from the hills of east Tennessee. She was brilliant and gifted; she clerked for both the DC Circuit and the U.S. Supreme Court then returned to Knoxville and practiced with me. One day she and I were at lunch and she announced she was leaving law practice to pursue a doctorate in Elizabethan English.

            “Why?” I asked. “You’re great at the law.” She looked at me with sad eyes and said, “There is no beauty in the law; there is no truth in it; there’s just heartache and money.”

            You know what? She was right. We spend way too much time idolizing “the law” and its ability to enable society. Instead we should focus on justice which is merciful, rehabilitative and restorative.

            What would Atticus say about our love affair with legalism, litigation, and retribution? I think I know.

Hey Mr. DOC Director


THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN JANUARY, 2015.

 

            Dear Sir:

            You spend a good deal of time telling the public how important re-entry is. DOC spends millions on “cognitive community” buildings run by “Evidence-Based” management techniques. Such great terminology that – in reality – means absolutely nothing to real success after prison. How much do you really know about what goes on in your prisons?

            Evidence-based failure, that’s it in a nutshell. Mr. Director, you spend millions on multiple layers of staff who spend their time trying to persuade others that their jobs really matter. Have you seen the flow-chart posted in the buildings that detail who offenders need to address questions to?

            Counselors report to “unit managers.” Unit managers’ report to the “Evidence-based manager,” who puts childish rules in place (“no sitting in your chairs during quiet time”) that have nothing to do with preparing men for life in the real world. That’s what your “E-B” program is giving you: silly, inane rules that just piss the men off and do nothing to promote leaving and never re-offending.

            As if that wasn’t bad enough, you put people in positions of responsibility who are anti-education, anti-college especially. This facility has a nationally recognized college program which has been written about by an eminent Harvard researcher. All the students pay their own way (no other DOC program is self-funded). The students reside together, study together, and rec and eat together creating a community. This seems like a good thing, right?

            Why then does your security chief scoff openly about the program? Why are new arrivals constantly dumped in the open bunks while other buildings have empty space? Why does your Evidenced-Based manager get away with saying there should be no college building?

            You’re in charge; do something. You know the Harvard researcher and you know what the research proves: earning a college degree while incarcerated is the most successful tool to reducing recidivism. Tell your staff, “Get on board or get a different line of work.” Become an advocate, not an adversary.

            Inmates don’t need “words” of the day and silly rules; they need real job skills, real educational opportunities, real interview practice. That’s what the “evidence” proves, not the crap that’s being pedaled out here.

 

Je suis … An Epiphany


THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN JANUARY, 2015.

 

            I was still in high school, the summer between my junior and senior year, when I came across his book. It was heavy, and complex, and difficult. And, it was mesmerizing in its descriptions of inhumanity and tyranny and evil. It was, it remains, profound and etched in my memory. Aleksandr Solzhenitsyn’s “Gulag Archipelago” transfixed me with its honest, brutal portrayal of life in the Soviet labor camp system.

            Solzhenitsyn let the west, let humanity know the truth about Stalin’s Soviet Union. While many here and in Western Europe glamourized the communist system, Mr. Solzhenitsyn issued a frank rebuttal. “It is a lie.” His book, smuggled out of the USSR and published in English stands as a testament to the words, “the pen is mightier than the sword.”

            Andrew Bacevich, a college professor and veteran from the Vietnam War lost his son in Iraq. He said,

            “A people untouched (or seemingly untouched) by war are far less likely to care about it. Persuaded that they have no skin in the game, they permit the state to do whatever it wishes to do.”

            Bacevich was responding to the American public’s “rah rah” attitude when it comes to this nation sending its young men – and women – in harm’s way. The vast majority of Americans know no one in the military (there are less than 2 million Americans in the armed services) yet we regularly allow our leaders to send those same men and women into combat; we allow this nation to be bankrupted fiscally and morally by defense spending that is 10 times what Russia spends, 7 times what China spends, and more than the next 30 nations after us spend combined. And, as I read Mr. Bacevich’s statement, I can’t help but think changing one word is also a profound truth:

            “A people untouched … by prison are far less likely to care about it.”

            Who in this country, who in this state, really cares what happens behind the walls and fences? After all “bad people” go to prison.

            “Je suis Charlie.” A few weeks ago, fourteen employees of the French satiric magazine “Charlie Hebdo” were murdered by Islamic fanatics. The reason? They dared portray the Prophet Mohammad in a satirical light. “Charlie Hebdo” crosses a great many lines – they were crude and extremely disrespectful to religion (and not just Islam). Many of their cartoons were borderline obscene. And yet, following the massacre western Europe and America rose as one in a chorus that said “Je suis Charlie” – “I am Charlie” – you cannot stop free expression. What a profound and powerful response to those who seek to curtail words … and what hypocrisy.

            “I was just a guy in Georgia writing what I thought.” Erick Erickson, founder of the blog, “Red State.”

            Over five years ago, I began writing for this blog as a way of witnessing to anyone who cared to read my journey inside. I had gone from a seemingly picture-perfect “American dream” life to an alien world, a world where right was wrong, up was down, and the process just continued to churn. I met men and women who I never even knew existed in my “America.” I saw evil, heartbreak, and moments of pure decency that restored my faith. All of it was – and always had been – part of the world I knew but I chose to ignore it.            I decided to blog with a few basic rules. First, I would always tell the truth. I don’t care if people agree with me; at least they know what I write is honest. Second, I would never “out” an inmate – or officer. I write character composites – multiple people rolled into one – to move stories forward. The names – my creations.

            Christian writer Phillip Yancey said in describing the prophets of the Bible,

            “For writers and others who seek to impart wisdom, there is a time to be a good (a prod to action) and a time to be a firmly embedded nail.”

            People stumble across this blog all the time and respond in a myriad of ways. I have been praised and cursed; told I am brilliant and that I deserve this time and more. I have been accused of disclosing too much about my personal life, too much about what happens here. I have been threatened by inmates and cautioned by officers. A federal prosecutor and FBI agents told me they read the blog. I know the facility – DOC - monitors it. Anonymous “notes” have been dropped on me … all because of some words I put together and mailed out to a blog.

            “Individuals and societies are not helpless victims of heredity. We have the power to change – not by “looking down” to nature but “up” to God, who consistently calls us forward to become the people we were designed to be.” Phillip Yancey.

            Much is wrong with America’s love affair with prisons. Many of the men, and women behind bars – while law breakers, didn’t – and still don’t – deserve to be incarcerated. States – and the Federal government – violate basic human rights daily in their operation of prisons and treatment of prisoners. It is a horrible, money-wasting, life destroying system that needs immediate attention.

            “You can judge a society by how it treats its prisoners.” Fyodor Dostoyevsky

            How do we, as Americans, answer Dostoyevsky? How do we, as Christians, respond to Jesus’ parable in Matthew 25?

            “Je suis ______” I am. I am a middle-aged, divorced, convicted felon who lives each day knowing I lost a wonderful wife, a great career, friends, wealth, and privilege. And, I am now witness to the mindless destruction and waste, the fraud and hubris that is America’s criminal justice system. I have met men who are not part of the American dream who live with their families outside the mainstream with bad schools, housing, healthcare, and economic opportunities. I see it all, I hear it all, and I write. And …

            I will continue to write about it regardless of the powers that be who are uncomfortable with it. Je suis … Larry. Just because you are locked up doesn’t mean your voice doesn’t count.

Saturday, September 12, 2015

…And it will save the taxpayers of Virginia


THIS BLOG WAS WRITTEN IN DECEMBER, 2014.

Irony – “an event or result that is the opposite of what is expected.”  That word came into focus the other night as the local Richmond newscast reported that disgraced former Governor Robert McDonnell’s defense team countered the Federal Probation sentencing recommendation with a request for leniency and “community service”.  The defense recommendation noted “”serving in community service will save Virginia’s taxpayers over $300,000 in a decade.”  Hey Governor Bob, no kidding!! Yet, when you had that power, that ability, to commute sentences of non-violent felons doing time in Virginia’s prisons, you said no.  You wouldn’t intercede even when the sentence was harsh, even when the offender was remorseful, even when the taxpayers were paying over $25,000 each year just to keep the prisoner locked up.  You wouldn’t act courageously, justly, mercifully.  And now, with your own life’s house of cards collapsed around you, with no acknowledgement of guilt on your part, you ask for the very thing you denies so many.  Irony.

“Give mercy, and mercy will be given to you.  Forgive as your Father has forgiven you.”  Pretty clear words.  The meaning of those words so often escapes us.  Some call it Gospel Karma.  We continue to be legalistic.  We see fallen behavior, we rush to condemn and demand “justice”.  But our definition of justice, typically extracted in years and “pounds of flesh” is the exact opposite of the “word”.  “Law and order”. “tough on crime”, “truth in sentencing”, all make great campaign slogans until the man handcuffed before the court is your son, your friend, or you.  Those simple words, the Biblical admonitions are a reminder – and a warning – that the standards you set for others will one day be applied to you.  “But I’m not like him”, you say.  You may be – in God’s eyes where “all sin and fall short”.

Governor McDonnell had the power – and the opportunity – to make a huge difference in the lives of thousands of Virginia’s incarcerated, me included.  He could have said there are too many first-time felons doing too many years in Virginia’s prison system for nonviolent felonies.  He could have personally read the letters sent to him by the friends and families of hundreds of these inmates; he could have examined their incarceration records and seen evidence of genuine remorse and change.  Instead, he allowed those sentences to stand.  Worse, he ignored these men and women’s pleas while he was engaged in his own wrongdoing.  And now he prepares for his own day in court, his own sentencing. And, I’m sure he wonders, will the judge listen to him, to his family and friends, as a plea for sentencing mercy is made.  Ironic, isn’t it?

I believe there is no purpose served by sending Robert McDonnell to prison.  If U.S. District Judge James Spencer were to ask me, I would simply tell him, “Do not send this man to serve time”.  There is not purpose to it.  McDonnell has already been punished.  He has been convicted by a jury of Virginians.  His reputation, damaged; his family problems bared; his marriage is in shambles; his law career ruined.  Nothing is penologically served by now sending this broken man to a low-custody Federal prison.  No, Robert McDonnell does not deserve incarceration, any more than hundreds of men I’ve met these past six and a half years who are watching calendars turn, day upon day, month to month, year after year; in a warped dance called justice.  Perhaps showing Governor McDonnell justice with mercy will be the beginning of real corrections, real prison reform, real justice.  Perhaps another Governor is watching and thinking, “There but for the grace of God – and a rabid prosecutor – go I.”

February 3, 2009.  I was sentenced that day in a courtroom packed with friends who took the stand and asked the court to show me mercy.  My two assistants sat with coworkers.  Across from them, my parents and my retired minister sat.  They heard a community leader tell the court how I had turned the local Meals on Wheels around from a state of financial collapse.  Letters from church and community members were presented.  Each letter, each person who spoke, asked the court to show me mercy.

And then I stood before the court.  I have never felt so alone, so broken, so ashamed.  I had written a brief statement.  In it, I minced no words.  I wasn’t nuanced.  I admitted I broke the law – the same words I spoke the day I was arrested.  I apologized to my employer, my family, my friends, the court.  I bluntly told the court I failed my wife, my sons, my parents, my moral code.  I told the court I deserved prison.  I asked the judge to instead show me mercy.  Give me an opportunity to make right my wrongs. 

My words fell on deaf ears.  Within moments of my remarks ending, the court handed down my sentence.  There were gasps and weeping from friends, from my “girls”, my two assistants who’d each been with me over ten years.  Me?  I stood there, said “thank you” to the judge and walked out of the court.  You know what else?  My head was up.  I had spoken from the heart, told the truth.

Within a month I was served with divorce papers.  Would a shorter sentence have saved our marriage?  I don’t know.  I don’t know if she could have ever forgiven me for the betrayal.  Still, how do you ask someone to stay for fifteen years?  Within a month, I was assigned my DOC number.  I was now “in the system”.  Less than four months later, I was in a cell with a gangleader doing 76 years for murder, in the oxymoron known as DOC receiving at Powhatan. 

No, Bob McDonnell doesn’t deserve all that.  He deserves mercy…just like a lot of us in here.